I D E N T I T Y |
written & designed by Azumi Himura
translated by QP/Diana
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Who betrayed first? Is it me or is it he? Before I was trapped in the reincarnation, I had been a betrayer. I'm not a pawn in your game, folks. You say, "for the sake of our aspiration for the destruction." "It's necessary to go back to the gentle arms of order in the nothingness." "So what? It's not my business!" I thought so in my mind at that time, exactly. I said in my mind "Talk to Hellmaster or to Dynast, not to me!" Now I wonder if he had expected that I hated him at that time. Had he created me in order to eat my anger, hate, --- and pain, at my death, and to get more power? Did I hate him at that time, because he let me to do? Had he created me to hate him in my dying time? Oh, had I been his pawn from the beginning? Bullshit. All are bullshit for me. So, I betrayed him. I did in order to be what I am. Just like my host human had lived his life to be what he was. In order to live on --- I'll kill the human who stands before me. For the sake of me, I victimise her. Yes, I know --- that I'm going to do the same thing he did to me at that time. I know it very well that I'm so selfish as to spread my pain all around. That eyes of the little human stare at me directly. The human, Lina, you stare at me. I can see that you eager to survive, even though you know that I'm overwhelmingly powerful. --- No, as I'm overwhelmingly powerful, your open desire for life gets stronger. Your desire --- the lights in your eyes. Oh, can I have the same lights in my eyes? I can't be a human, but still can I have them? I must live for long years --- too long years for me to be exhausted to live, however, I can't help but hoping to have that lights in my eyes. There is a human who protest against others' greed desperately. And I'm protesting against other Mazoku's greed, too. Will you say that you are like me, as I think that I'm like you? Anyway, I will kill you. For the sake of myself. I'll kill you who are like me. I'll kill, and I'll survive even if what will happen to me. I'll kill in order to survive. I know that my theory is too arrogant. I know well that it's not right at all. It's me who knows very well that it's not right at all. There may be nothing in the end of my way. But, still I'll do. Even if I shall burn everything down into ashes. Even if I shall stand alone in the midst of the dust. I'll do it in order to be what I am. |
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